If i ever have a baby

i promised to myself, if i never get married in the age of 32 . let me rephrase it .. yes ! 32 .. i would start to look for adoption program .. my desire to have a baby is stronger than having a husband by that age .. im serious! I dont want to talk much about why i desire to have baby more than having a husband by the age of 32 but i want to write on my dream of having a baby ..
If i have a baby :

1. i would name him , Abel ( the first generation ever in the bible) or if her, jasmine ( i love the flower and it sounds lovely for a lady)
   
2. I would read loudly to my baby everytime i have time or everytime before goes to bed. (my parent never did that but still the reading habits cultivated in us .. )and pray together with my baby ( my parent never be the perfect parent but they pray for their kids , thats make them the perfect parent ever.)
   
3. I would create scrap book or album for my baby's progression and of course to blog about my daily life with my baby. ( i might be the most popular blogger and mother at the same time )
4. I would let my parent to babysit my baby because i want my baby to enjoy the love of Grandparent ( my grandmom died when i was 5, then the rest of my grandparent never have the chance to stay closed with me coz of the distance)
5. I would go for jogging while pushing the baby cart ... i want my baby to enjoy the park scenery everyday
   
6. I would cultivate the habits of eating natural or organic food to my baby . healthy lifestyle
7. I would not put t.v in my bedroom for less radiation effect on my sleeping baby (i have to watch my fav show in the living room)
8. I would start to open up a bank account or investment for my baby for the future education and etc expenses ( the mistake my parent did, they never open 1 for me)
9. I would tag my baby along to watch dance or music or art class ( i hope he or she would be one of my successsor in the church to teach the kids in dance, music or drama )
10. I would love my baby as how i love myself or even more than loving myself
    

This is baby xavier, my nephew .. my favourite baby ever ... Everytime i look at him or play with him or babysit him .... my desire to have baby is growing stronger and stronger .. i love this baby , he is smart, obedient, polite and cutest of the cutest ..


xoxo

*p/s im still looking for a husband material and get my own child tho .. this is just a dream which it may happen of not to happen

Smelly foot!

was actually looking for office slipper or home slipper.

But I got masef cute fluffy puppy sliper!

My foot usually sweating even under d air-con .. It caused smell whenever I wear it off .. I seriously dun know like d unpleasant smell .. Dont know d cause .. I wipe d shoe everytime b4 I wear it, spray deodorant on my foot or spread body butter to avoid d smell but ..... D unpleasant smell is remain ...

Please if any of you knows d way to avoid it

Xoxo

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Ku sembahMu Yesus (higher deeper)

Was awake in d middle of d nite so this is what I found ..
'because of Jesus, my life is worth of the living life'

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I work for shoes and bags!

i support Malaysian product by buying it ... I am so proud of being Malaysian with the products or power brand by Summits and Mary John. I got this things within 3 months

1. Mary john shoe - got it on sale

2. Bags from the Summits. The black one is my mom's .. the other two is mine. bought it with membership discounts.. i wont buy thing without discounts nowsaday :P

10 personal questions!

What do you have on your bedside table?

My cell phone, my books, my make-up, my perfume, my headset, my greenwich tablelamp ( as you can imagine its a messy table)

Do you have a tattoo?

Nop ..... i would love too but i have to make sure the tattoo means a lot to me . if you have any tatto design, please suggest

Do you believe in abstinence prior to marriage?

hmmmm .. i dont support on it but i did . i always wondering how would it be if i ever keep myself till marriage. would i get confused or would i look for more of it even when im already married. but i know , when im married with my no V-Card, i would be faithful to my hubby because ive had enough with the inconsistence emotion after it .... now im matured wont be shaken with the emotion but enjoy it because i love my hubby

What is your worst habit?

eating snacks or tidbit even while im busy at work ...

blogging , tweeting and facebook-ing while working or at church ...

How do you handle finances in your relationship? Or, how would you like to handle money in your future relationship?

with my current relationship, when we were back in uni, we usually estimate ourself with RM100 per week for kitchen expenses, only once in a week for entertainment either for movies or eating ousite or drink at bar. i will be paying on the rental and bills, he will pay for our taxi's, lunch in uni, internet reloads, dog food and dvd's......

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

i love jasmine .... its flower with good smell with good nutrient ... its make someone sounds lovely

Where do you want to go on your next vacation?

it would be manukan island (Malaysia) or Bali (indonesia)

What is one political cause you feel strongly about?

Social welfare programs to help people get back on their feet after divorce, abuse, addiction, etc. I’d happily hand over tax money for that.

Have you ever stolen anything?

hmmm .. my mom's perfumme ...lol

Tell us something embarrassing about yourself.

i dont like my celulite or fat to be precise ... thats not good coz it make me sometime dont love myself

and i always imagine thousands of readers would enjoy reading my blog which i know nobody would read because i only have few followers ... but well i love the populairty i gain from imaginantion

BE CAREFULL WITH HIDDEN CAMERA !!

I read this from my facebook newsfeed :

(http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=271127212901612&set=a.140128492668152.29253.100000130067053&type=1&ref=nf)

How to Detect Hidden Camera in Trial Room?

In front of the trial room take your mobile and make sure that mobile can make calls........
Then enter into the trail room, take your mobile and make a call.....
If u can't make a call......!!!!
There is a hidden camera......
This is due to the interference of fiber optic cable during the signal transfer......

Please forward this to your friends to educate this issue to the
public......To prevent our innocent ladies from HIDDEN CAMERA...........

Pinhole Cameras in Changing Rooms of Big Bazaar, Shoppers Stop?

A few days ago, I received this text message:
Please don't use Trial room of BIG BAZAAR there are pinhole cameras to make MMS of young girls.
So, please forward to all girls. Also forward to all boys who have sisters and girlfriends.

Don't be shy in forwarding this message. Because its about protecting the integrity of all girls & ladies.

HOW TO DETECT A 2-WAY MIRROR?

When we visit toilets, bathrooms, hotel rooms, changing rooms, etc., How many of you know for sure that the seemingly ordinary mirror hanging on the wall is a real mirror, or actually a 2-way mirror I.e., they can see you, but you can't see them. There have been many cases of people installing 2-way mirrors in female changing rooms or bathroom or bedrooms.

It is very difficult to positively identify the surface by just looking at it. So, how do we determine with any amount of certainty what type of Mirror we are looking at?

CONDUCT THIS SIMPLE TEST:

Place the tip of your fingernail against the reflective surface and if there is a GAP between your fingernail and the image of the nail, then it is a GENUINE mirror.

However, if your fingernail DIRECTLY TOUCHES the image of your nail, then BEWARE, IT IS A 2-WAY MIRROR! (There may be someone seeing you from the other side). So remember, every time you see a mirror, do the "fingernail test." It doesn't cost you anything. It is simple to do.

This is a really good thing to do. The reason there is a gap on a real mirror, is because the silver is on the back of the mirror UNDER the glass.

Whereas with a two-way mirror, the silver is on the surface. Keep it in mind! Make sure and check every time you enter in hotel rooms.

Share this with your sisters, wife, daughters, friends, colleagues, etc.

Pass this message to all Ur friends in the Contacts.

i support operation beautiful

this is what i got myself . its a stick note to remind myself and whoever come to my desktop. they would feel encouraged and stay beautiful


after reading the blog from www.operationbeautiful.com, i choose this pic note as my fav

broke into pieces+sleep= wake up for work

Yesterday evening, i went home with a heartless emotionless body. not tired, not weary, just i dont feel like feeling anything. See, feeling can be control by your mind.

I watched tv while eating my early dinner because my discipline to eat before 7pm has to be maintained. Not until my eyes and brain satisfied to watch what i want, my dad interfered, he has to watch news. i didn't object or angry, i just went to bathroom to shower....

i jumped on my bed, sniffed on his shirt, hmmm actually more than sniffing, i hugged and hugged and cuddled and sniffed and ............................. tears

im good in keeping my feeling not to make myself feel good but not to be overeacted about it. nobody knows i feel sad for weeks now. but dont worry, im cool. never been better

I miss victor. The last time i heard from him was last friday. He called to say he has arrived.

i dont want to be hopeless lover but I do will wait for him.Love is not the only thing to make people stay together and be together. There is a lot other thing to be consider and we are in the middle of building our career. I believe, once the career has hit the spot, Victor and i will be together. I believe

People asked, 'Pri, you are an atrractive person, u meet a lot of people, u have a lot of friend, why are u still waiting for victor?'

'' i wasted my 4 years not waiting patiently... i lost a lot of important and lovely people in my life. Today, im living a life which i have to take up the chances to face the risk which might not be the risk. Even if its a risk, it would make my life excited.''

People asked again, ' why are u really into victor?'

' the first impression i got when the first time i know him, he is quiet. i love quiet person and he is smart. well, that was before, now, i am into him because, both of us can be ourself whenever we are together, we act like kids, act like friends, act like enemy and he is a sweetie although he is not a romantic person but he is sweet.'

people asked, ' what do u miss the most about him?'

' i miss his finger fills the space of my hand. he holds my hand while sleeping, he kiss me if i fall asleep while watching him playing games, he buys me stuff ( he lost a lot of money a lot of time because of me, long story tho). i miss his smell, his smile, his long leg look like praying mantis........... (hahahahahahahhahahah...........)' u know, people will roll their eyes if i continue

people asked, 'what do u love the most about him?'

' he is willing to change. yes he reacted slow but he is changing. if you ever date me, u wont stay longer i bet. most of my ex, they say the same thing , im a nagger... good nagger. but hey , im changing tho because Victor willing to change too. He really lead me to have calm and relax attitude. as the payback, he calls me everyday , even if he failed to do so, i wont set the bomb and bombard his phone. He made me be patient, as a payback, he has to accompany me more than 2 hours while hanging around with my girlfriends...... above all, he knows and understand how to balance up the task being in a relationship.'

people still wondering, ' Are u sure he loves u just being balance?'

' Love is universal. Love is real. He is doing it. so its all love. Yes he do loves me and i love him too.'

people is getting the point, ' now both of you is far. what are you going to do to maintain the love?'

' lets skip the process coz its a long story. The most important thing is, HOPE, PRAY and BELIEVE.'

people gets bored with my calm answer, ' what if your relationship wont work? '

' victor and i is not a magician but God is mighty and powerful, thing happens or not happens. i believe, God will provide and bless me more than i do now.'

all this question asked by people a lot of time , last nite, i flashed it back and write it here today.

it may be not your best love story ever but victor is my best of life ever happened to me.

well well well ... boss is in the office and ive spend my time on net for 2 hrs without doing work. let me get my ass back

xoxo

my excitement this week!

it has been a week , the nightmare and reality had happened. Victor has flown to his country to get visa to UK. I thank God, i didnt really broke into pieces but instead, i plant the hope of seeing him soon deeper. in God,either everything happens or it will never happen.



i decided to go for my first ever trip (alone) with my own money and my own effort on coming december to sabah. i just cant resist the beach vacation although im staying at the coastal city. i have checked the flight and hotels. i will do it slowly as my finance is not really allowing me to do it in one click.

then next month 18 sept to 20 sept, i will be attending company's training on marketing and leasing at Sunway pyramid hotel. my heart jumped becoz 'ITS SHOPPING TIME' , i have to get good hand bags with good shoes.



i have been checking and tracking for paris hilton product but i cant see any of it from any website. i would like to see the price, if the price is still on my range, i dont mind buying it, once in a life time tho


what i believe, no matter how casual and rugged is your clothing, if you hold a good bag with good design and colour and texture, it would make u look elegance.

im proud of dem (part 2)

the first blog i posted was a bit messy coz i didnt know how to arrange it with more pic so i created the second blog about our M.U.D.D workshop event

they were given noah story to transform it into comic drawing or electronic comic. they came out with a good one with good song background and with a good team work

our future m.u.d.d participants. they came to support their brother performing on C.A.N.S

hahahahahahahha .. thats me writting the feedback question

the youngest musician during the m.u.d.d workshop. she has her own youtube video

(from left: desmond, anderson, me and eliot) = the men at work ...lol they are among MUDD commitee.

the m.u.d.d commitee body worship dance (indescriable by chris tomlin). only two of dem (the ladies) are dancers, the rest is first timer. but good job. they have set an examples to other youth

i was amazed with the energetic and dramatic dance by the trainers from st. andrew church, bsb

we celebrated our commitee birthday on the last day of the event . its our way to appreciate all of them

the ''free to dance'' (by planetshaker) group. they presented mudd theme song with their unique , cute and creative dance. the big guy was the start of the nite. WA CAYA SAMA LU

the whole participants, trainers, and committe with our beloved priest

im so proud of e

ON 15TH JULY - 17TH JULY 2011,
ST.CO Parish, miri, was organising M.U.D.D workshop.

i had fun personally as the main organiser, seeing the kids laughing, learning and making friend is precious..
i may be a bit loosen with them being noisy and notty but i just want to be friend with them so dat they could accept me and accept my advice or command in the future.

1. this is our youth Leader, the president of AYC (Anglican youth council, miri)

2. leon (the purple shirt boy) been under me since he was a toodler, now he can rap and dance better than the adult. this pic was taken during their graduation from MUDD workshop











3. during the music session when i asked them to change the rhythm song of ' Yesus pokok' into few different genre. i personally like this pic angle. two cute people. (left: julius, right : sheryl)

















4. they are just too notty. everytym there is a leisure time, they would do wrist wrestling. which i dont know the reason. i like the shadow style of the pic

airplane food

Rogerrr ..... Rogeeeeer ..... EAGLE HAS LANDED!

im back in miri after almost a week of visiting and do something important in K.L (Kuala Lumpur).

i eat , i eat, i eat ... no control of carbs while staying in K.L because in miri there is no carls.jr , no burger king, no kenny rogers, no kerepek lekor, etc

* M.A.S food

the best food i had while travelin is the airplane food. i have a colleague who agreed with my statement ' airplane food is always nice and tasty'. we dont know the reason but its nice and fulfiling ... haha

kawan biar seribu, best friend biar lah yang setia pada mu

i have phobia in making friends ..

usually i be friend with people because there is issue involved or we are placed in the same room or the person approached me first or if the person approached me in a brilliant way ..

not to blame my proud or kesombongong, its a phobia after betrayed my my best friend when i was 14 years old .. i cant really recalled hows d story but i still keep in touch with the girl but we r not really talking anymore, she just added me in fb and dats all .... LIFE !

HOWEVER, now seems like i have a lot friends, in my office , i have 2 pleaseant and cheerfull ladies to cheer my working hours, in church i have bountiful blessing from the youth and after-university-life i have like 2 still remain best friend which we contacted , gossiped ( cant avoid that) and love each other conditionaly ...

our life without friends are like eye-shadows make-up without compact double layered face powder. still can go on but would fade away because of sweat

but be careful in choosing best friend or in pouring out your heart or secret .... not all people care about it , they just want to know and laugh at your back

xoxo

im sleepy laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ...

finished up the body worship practice with MUDD commitee late at night then packing ...

why am i not excited bout flying to see him ?

first salary

people is shrieking and excited when the received their first salary . i was excited too while waiting for it .

eh, but as im holding it, i dun feel anything ...



i thank God for everything that i received but what i mean is, i feel normal

maybe because i used to spend more than i received in my salary or i was just sitting in the office within this month and suddenly i have my salary so the money is not the triggering my excitement

or maybe because i have to travel so i have paid for my flight ticket.. half of the money has gone ..

or im just a boring lady now ...lol wat a reason

however, i enjoy my weekends now . i have spend most of my time with the boys ( youth at church) . i learned so much about life from them . i will do my research more and publish the blog in motivates for life's blog

after 3 months

i purposely stop blogging in this account for a while ... most of my blogs about woman is published on http://www.motivates4life.com/search/label/woman ... here is just my so-called-scrap-book-blog ...

i felt like it was looooooooooong time ago for the last time i posted my story.

most of my previous blogs, potraying sadness, emotional break down but typed in a good phrases .. sik mok la ketara gilak kan cerita nya ...... but i thank God, as im d present day, i feel soooooooooo much better ........ seems like almost all my worries months back, has been answered .........

now im fully commited to the creative ministry at church, not only with the youth but also with the adults and senior citizen. i have so much fun . seeing and caring about other people's life is giving me joy in knowing about them more and knowing about God's creation deeper. i 1 to share my very tiny experiences to the youth about being creative in anything they do especially in M.U.D.D (MUsic, Dance & Drama). my vission is to witness the transformation of life among the youth through their interest , hobbies and fun with Jesus. thats my source of happiness

some of the recent pictures from patronal dinner, 19th june 2011:

* i was just giving some ideas on stomping steps or used pinggan mangkuk things to do beats but in the end , they decided to do bucket drum performance. good job. new faces. new life tranforming too.

* this are all my girls. im really proud of them. they only had few practices for this pom-pom or cheerleading routines and dances. but they managed 'wow-ed' the audience. i cant wait to see them growing up and teach other kid in the future. love em so much.

the precious moment of all ... we took picture with our assistant bishop. spurting mai iya wai. me was posing with him, sat in front of him.. feel honoured :P

*me with my unstopable actions being the emcee of the night with my decent cool cousin. nadai ulih kalah ucu penghulu. mesti nemu bejako

after long months of awaittng for job ... at last, now im blessed with a company, NAIM REALTY SDN. BHD ... never thought i would be accepted in this company, if i ever measured my results and my expereinced, i would never be in this company with this position but i believe, its all God's work in me ... love u God

after

we won the best table for lucky draw... yay!!! green table lamp


i was nominated as the nominees for miss colourful

3 flowers in the office

have joy in the present

i remember when i used not to think of future much , i had the best time of my life .

i step out from my house to my uni with the thought ' the day would be the best'. i put on my best dress, put on some make-up, poke headset into my ears and walk with the rhythm of my song playlist from my phone. last year '' what is love'' by jennifer lopez was my fav song to listen while walking.

i came back to home in the evening with weary body and mind after faced a lot of arguments in class or assignment or just being tired after long hour classes. but my spirit lifted up and still going to sleep and wake-up tomorow doing the same thing and having the same confident.

yesterday, as my level of depression is shooting too high, i tried to recognize the core of the depression. taaaaa-daaaaaaaaaaaaaa ~~~~~ im worried too much about tomorow so im depressed today .

my mind travel too faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar to the future while tagging my joy with it and left my today with sadness ...

pri , please comes back to today because today is present, a gift to be enjoy.

i do not know how my day would be today or tomorow. i do not know if i still travels my mind that far but i do HOPE and PRAY i would be great today to face tomorow

i miss my victor friggin much .. i regret i never tell him how much i appreciate him through my actions and my words .. i just hope it wont be too late for me to tell him .. i miss him

i decided to see doctor about my migraine . im waiting for my dad to pick me up

its 1 month now !!!!!!

serious .............. its not easy ......................... day by day i lift up and goes down again .......................

as i wrote in my article in of my friend's blog , need to fil-up the emptiness by honoring God .

wow, it was easy when i dishonored God years back ..... i have my own solution to every emptiness or problem i have but trust me , i ''reaped'' rubbish after any of the decision i made ..... now i thank God, as hard it is, as hurt as i am, i know im having gracious life .....


for one of obvious result,now im gaining weight .... in 2006-2007 and middle of 2008 , i was as skinny as my second sister ..... i lost 22 kg overall ..... thats the result of continuous stress even after getting the solution on track .......

my pocket never been empty .... my wardrobe were filled up with new clothes and shoes every month ...... i seldom staying alone in the house, i always out having fun ..... my study was in a mess , failed my economic exam like more 3 times .....

school fees always in debt because of my shophaholic attitude ...... i lost all my local friends . up to this moment, i never asked the reason they left me aside but deep down in my heart i know.. its ok ive forgave them only we cant be back as friends anymore .. each of us is having different life now ...

yada-yada-yada .... on and on of the stories .... lets focus on the good side because now im the type of person looking at the life as beautiful as it is .... i look through it with my heart not head .. with head, i could even destroy anything that i have so better still view the world through my heart .. chewaaaaah ~


as im jobless and in need of job, i had 2 interviews last week, one is from naim cendera company and samling company ...

the naim cendera company was an easy interview, given tips by victor how should i answer some question when they asks . they do like me but they will only inform me about the confirmation by end of this month. the interviewer advised me '' stay be yourself and polish a bit, surely other companies would like to hire you. u can go ahead with other companies but do inform us so that we would bring out your name from our lists'' ... kira 70% accepted la tu

the offer wasnt really outstanding but i do love retailing industries because the post they were offering me is '' admin assist'' for its new mall called permy mall . only end of this year it would be open.

the Samling company interview was the hardest ever . i need to answer MBTI before the lady interviewing me then after evaluation throught my personality and resume, she advised me to go for internal auditor post . i got shocked and i rejected it softly in my heart . however, she is good, she perceived my face expression. then she offered me Human resource executives at one of its factory at kuala baram. therefore, it leads to another test, ''situational test'' to test my understanding on HRM. it required me to answered it within 30 mins. i successfully answer it all except the warning letter ... lol ... my brain was stucked on the format

well... well.... wild wild west ...... she said i shouldnt worry, she likes me only that she needs to check if the kuala baram is available for me .... leeeeeeeeeeeeeeer ... i thought there is already a post for me ...

whatever is it ... i just surrender it unto God ... im back to honor God and God knows my needs .. He shall provide

** after the stressful interview i went through, i was surprised with the front view of the company ... its a bone statue of a dinosaur ... i bet the found the bone there but very funny .. it make me giggled .. see told ya, i see the world beautiful as it is .. thats the different between heart full of sorrow with heart full of hopes








** i went for the morning interview so i joined my dad and sister for early breakfast like 6 - 6.15am .... i was mesmerized at malaysian really enjoyed their breakfast .. they would eat heavy food like kolo mee or claypot noodle .. just like the boy with the turquoise coloured top bowing his head down straight to his plate trying to finished up the kolo mee. trust me, he ate it within 7 mins only ..... gessss it scared me. i took his pic as an evidence

2 weeks in ''singlehood'' mode

i am a human people ..... no emotion means we are robot but emotions with the control is the element that im struggling with ....

i may sounds or acts like a ''junkies'' when i got through the weeks . 2 weeks ago i blogged on how i started to stay in miri with the mindset of singlehood. i did failed to maintain it. i fall in the middle. i cried a lot. loneliness and desperation attacked my mind which extend the blood vein in my heart. it almost exploded.

this is not because im too crazy of a guy or too damn in love with a guy. i have an issue, easily emotional attached and desperation of attention. as sarah barreiliss song say , '' im the queen of the attention of details''. this problem caused another problem. its affected other people around me. i do not want anyone hurts because of my problem.

a friend of mine, said '' kumbang bukan seekor'' ... hehe ... which is very true but dats not my problem gang, i can have any guy i want on just a second but i want to learn to do and enjoy this world with my own view and effort before im ready to love again.

love should be patient, no envy, no jealous and no pain. this is what im targeting. how ? i have to love myself first then i can love other people without emotion destruction.

when i fall again during the process, God intervened. He reminded me '' HE IS FAITHFULL'' . this coming sunday, i will be leading the praise and worship at church, i personally choose a song by christ tomlin, 'forever' .... the chorus part said '' FOREVER GOD IS FAITHFUL, FOREVERY GOD IS STRONG'' ... i cant stand in this world in this circumstances all alone.. i need God to intervene. im learning to empty my mind by hearing to God more.. its hard but im tring my best.

well, enough of my ''preaching'' , none of you would understand but i know someday somewhere, you want it the way i want it too..

i celebrated my valentines day with my cousin and his wife, we went for kfc dinner ..... soooo classic . for my birthday, it was humble enough to have my home 'tapau' dinner with my families and a cheesecake bought by daddy.

the few days later, my church members did celebrate it too by bringing me for dinner .. food food food ... asian and their food just like the italian too .....
* bowling pose .... i won best dress for the event ... funny

* my fav cousin's wife... our vals day dinner. my first time wearing pink all the way

* my cousin and his wife...... loving this two couples....... i usually feels better everytime im with them

* our hands with the love sticks i got for AYC ... this was during my dinnver bday with the chuch member

* my angelina jolie's style .... lol bday at home

* my dad was preparing the cake while watching by my hungry sisters
* mommy had fun

day 1 of loneliness (wednesday, 9th feb 2011, 6.20pm, LCCT)

* took it after landing at miri airport, 9th feb 2011

to be informed, i may be lose counting of the days but lets start with one sweet evening.

this is the decision i made to myself (march 2010- recent), i dont want any rebound or any alternatives or any replacement while my relationship with victor is facing long distance. i may failed and you laugh at my failure in facing it but i believe God is never fade up with me.

it has been 10 years, i date, ''divorced'', ''widow'', ''complicated'' or what-so-ever relationship with boys, ive been skipping , jumping and being in (#just saying all those exaggerated term). not comfortable enough to discussed how my past 10 years life was but will share with you all how i will overcome my own choice not to be like pri-10-years-ago.

i got my a$$ back to read more books, for now i have about 4 books to read, fictions and motivational types of genre. Happened to be , i have elizabeth gilbert's best book called ''eat, pray, love'' which a story of her getting her life back as how i am now as a gfit from my lovely victor and his friends . i would explained more of my view on the book in my other upcoming blog.





this book is one of the factors lead to my decision about no more rebound or alternatives in relationship. i read it for one and a half years, finished it up on tuesday, 8th feb 2011, 11pm. it just me, whenever i feel like not ready to read it, i would stop at certain chapter. i cant force my understanding just to finish up the book reading race. i note each of the point in the book with a thoughtful view then i enjoy the true meaning of reading.










victor got me smart phone, Samsung galaxy S. its just for me to keep browsing, twitting or blogging while facing LDR and jobless life. loving the phone to the max. im still learning to fully utilize the phone. thanks love for your marvelous gift



















* just a picture i took while in the fast train heading to LCCT

besides the technology and materialistic way to overcome it, i decided to more observance and friendly. im not friendly. i refused to talk to strangers or start any conversation with any new people i meet. i believe, the more i observed the more i enjoy the beauty of life then share it in my blog then blessed the reader (yes, YOU!)

after 3 weeks away from home, i feel a bit relief after all the stresses i faced. as i was heading back to miri from kuala lumpur,using air asia, i found out a lot of things. i walked aimlessly towards P8 gate, seeing a lot of people sitting at the bench waitting for the miri flight. i was just wondering, are they following me ? why on earth, people is heading to miri at this time of the month? seems like airplane never get empty.

with my watery eyes (saying goodbye is the hardest thing) and my fringe disturbing my sight, i saw a men sitting eating nasi lemak. well, im hungry so lets try some west malaysia dish before im back to my east malaysia food style. instead of trying the nasi lemak, i got myself, UNCLE D WRAP meal set as it was suggested by the cashier. goodness, the wrap is superb nice. i complimented the food to the cashier which happened to be the owner of the stall. from there, we started to talk business conversation. she was asking me on how to expand her stall. well, as im majored in all this, i suggested some ideas and informed her about sarawak market on F&B. in the end she gave me her business card if i ever found anyone who interested to franchise her business. we shall see, it might be me ............................. :P

i took a picture of air asia plane' wing ( i dont know name of aeroplane compartment ok). i was a bit shaken after realised the is a burn up mark on the wing but well i slept off like an hour 25 min with no fear of death while flying with air asia. i love sky






forgot to mentioned, i cried my heart out when victor and co dropped me at the departure lane, it took him 30 mins to calm me down. we were just sitting and talking and joking untill im ready to walk into the departure lane. i know i acted like a baby, so what ?! hehe wise men say ' stay with a man which treat u like a lady but make u act like a baby''

i slept off early as i reached home. home sweet home indeed. my first home in this world is in my family's arm

well, im not alone or lonely anyway ............................................ never say u r alone just because ur husband or ur wife or ur friend is not with you....................................... there is a lot of way to fill up ur leisure time