day 1 of loneliness (wednesday, 9th feb 2011, 6.20pm, LCCT)

* took it after landing at miri airport, 9th feb 2011

to be informed, i may be lose counting of the days but lets start with one sweet evening.

this is the decision i made to myself (march 2010- recent), i dont want any rebound or any alternatives or any replacement while my relationship with victor is facing long distance. i may failed and you laugh at my failure in facing it but i believe God is never fade up with me.

it has been 10 years, i date, ''divorced'', ''widow'', ''complicated'' or what-so-ever relationship with boys, ive been skipping , jumping and being in (#just saying all those exaggerated term). not comfortable enough to discussed how my past 10 years life was but will share with you all how i will overcome my own choice not to be like pri-10-years-ago.

i got my a$$ back to read more books, for now i have about 4 books to read, fictions and motivational types of genre. Happened to be , i have elizabeth gilbert's best book called ''eat, pray, love'' which a story of her getting her life back as how i am now as a gfit from my lovely victor and his friends . i would explained more of my view on the book in my other upcoming blog.





this book is one of the factors lead to my decision about no more rebound or alternatives in relationship. i read it for one and a half years, finished it up on tuesday, 8th feb 2011, 11pm. it just me, whenever i feel like not ready to read it, i would stop at certain chapter. i cant force my understanding just to finish up the book reading race. i note each of the point in the book with a thoughtful view then i enjoy the true meaning of reading.










victor got me smart phone, Samsung galaxy S. its just for me to keep browsing, twitting or blogging while facing LDR and jobless life. loving the phone to the max. im still learning to fully utilize the phone. thanks love for your marvelous gift



















* just a picture i took while in the fast train heading to LCCT

besides the technology and materialistic way to overcome it, i decided to more observance and friendly. im not friendly. i refused to talk to strangers or start any conversation with any new people i meet. i believe, the more i observed the more i enjoy the beauty of life then share it in my blog then blessed the reader (yes, YOU!)

after 3 weeks away from home, i feel a bit relief after all the stresses i faced. as i was heading back to miri from kuala lumpur,using air asia, i found out a lot of things. i walked aimlessly towards P8 gate, seeing a lot of people sitting at the bench waitting for the miri flight. i was just wondering, are they following me ? why on earth, people is heading to miri at this time of the month? seems like airplane never get empty.

with my watery eyes (saying goodbye is the hardest thing) and my fringe disturbing my sight, i saw a men sitting eating nasi lemak. well, im hungry so lets try some west malaysia dish before im back to my east malaysia food style. instead of trying the nasi lemak, i got myself, UNCLE D WRAP meal set as it was suggested by the cashier. goodness, the wrap is superb nice. i complimented the food to the cashier which happened to be the owner of the stall. from there, we started to talk business conversation. she was asking me on how to expand her stall. well, as im majored in all this, i suggested some ideas and informed her about sarawak market on F&B. in the end she gave me her business card if i ever found anyone who interested to franchise her business. we shall see, it might be me ............................. :P

i took a picture of air asia plane' wing ( i dont know name of aeroplane compartment ok). i was a bit shaken after realised the is a burn up mark on the wing but well i slept off like an hour 25 min with no fear of death while flying with air asia. i love sky






forgot to mentioned, i cried my heart out when victor and co dropped me at the departure lane, it took him 30 mins to calm me down. we were just sitting and talking and joking untill im ready to walk into the departure lane. i know i acted like a baby, so what ?! hehe wise men say ' stay with a man which treat u like a lady but make u act like a baby''

i slept off early as i reached home. home sweet home indeed. my first home in this world is in my family's arm

well, im not alone or lonely anyway ............................................ never say u r alone just because ur husband or ur wife or ur friend is not with you....................................... there is a lot of way to fill up ur leisure time