no harm being normal in valentine day

yerp box of love shaped candy indicates valentine's day..

im 25 years on 16th february .. YES !!!! 2 days after valentine day... people usually wrap one gift for my birthday and vals. day... i dun like it but what to do .. theres way my friend can save up...
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its been 4 times im in a relationship within 25th years(including my high school puppy love), i never had proper or i can call it no valentine day experience.. if anyone hears this.. no one believe it happened to me ..

this year im kinda in a serious relationship.. i was asking my bf his plan for valentines day.. he gave me sarcastic answer... i was a bit shocked but i understand he is not the type that celebrates it..


the only thing i hate to hears from him was '' pri , why do you want to follow people... you typical malaysian girl likes to compare yourself with others..why everything has to get me involves in what you want to try ..why dun you do charity on that day, u give out all your toys and shoes to the needy one.. dun be stingy just want to celebrate it alone with me.. there is no need to celebrate it as long as you know i love you'' ................. panas saya dengar tu ..........

i never want to follow the people around me , i was just wondering how does it feels being given gifts and being treat like a princess that day ... i never force him to do so , i was just asking but he bombard me like there is not tomorow.. i want to be normal girl too although im off age to be call crazy teenagers..

it took me 2 days to cool down after he said that but in the end i can see the truth beyond his answer. then i went for care group, my leader delivered simple but very meaningful speech on valentines day and cny.. what she was saying '' let show love to people that we call our loves one , does not mean u and ur bf only , u can celebrates it with your friends.. bring your friend out or anyone that u never close with''..

i was inspired by her speech .. i decided to invite my friends to g out on valentines day .. maybe have dinner then watch movie .. like cliche celebration

suddenly, last tuesday..... my bf came and discussed about valentines day plan ...

i told him that i want to celebrate with my friend.. he stopped me with a question '' who is it ??''

i stunned for a while and ask myself '' who should i invite??'' .... most of my friend they are not occupied too that day ... they won't ever let their valentines day be empty like i did..

in the end , my bf said we should do something ... and he leaves it to me on the plan because he is kinda broke...thats the reason he said all those stupid preach of him..

im actually don't know what to do because he got me at first and i don't have expereinced on this... maybe dinner then will decide what to do next after we eat :D .. we seldom go out together because of school works and other commitment, tomorow is the day we will mark as our first valentines day together and i pray we will have fun..

i will updates it after tomorow

p.s boys don't ever let your girl feel bad when the requests something ... if u can't do it just tell her straight that u can't but ever let your word hurt her..

xoxo